Quitened storm

If I say a word
with dried up tears
and choked voice
I mean - I mean it!

Don't take this as my weakness
As there is a storm
that awaits behind the tears
a roar behind choked voice

When they rise-all falls
Neither you nor anything stays

But the storm
will not leave me either
Will swallow me deep down
never to rise again

Quitened storm

If I say a word
with dried up tears
and choked voice
I mean - I mean it!

Don't take this as my weakness
As there is a storm
that awaits behind the tears
a roar behind choked voice

When they rise-all falls
Neither you nor anything stays

But the storm
will not leave me either
Will swallow me deep down
never to rise again

What ails my heart

What ails my heart
Your smile or Your love filled eyes?
Or is it your ignorance
Of the language of my eyes?

Your sight makes me smile
And pains my heart as well
I don't want to ail my heart again
Not again not the pain

But can’t help
I hate this helpless ness and love it as well

What frees my heart?
Your smile or Your love filled eyes?
Or is it your ignorance
Of the language of my eyes?

I dream every day

I dream every day that I will sleep in peace.
I dream that the last thought in mind will be free from regret and pain.
I dream every morning that today, I shall make a day- DAY worth remembering
However, everyday I close the day trying to forget it as fast as possible.

Humiliation, defeat, deceit and deceive…these are all that I wake up every morning to see,
Even when I look up at the sky to see the divine creation, I realize it is divine - but SILENT.

Its silence pierces through my heart like a poisoned sword….
but alas! It does not kill me.
I am a mortal- immortal being…
I am living, breathing?

This world has made me immortal.
I cant free myself out of this whirlpool of life…..
even a whirl pool kills u in the end…
I don’t know where my end lies….

You live quietly in my heart

I have never been afraid,
Never been so quiet.
I was never so deep in thought
As I was awake all night.

I did not lose my heart
For the first time in my life.
However this time
I lost it – and I remain quiet.

I want to tell u.
And tell the world loud.
Yet my fear hushes me
And puts my emotions on lull.

Your thoughts and your memories,
And every thing of yours
That remain in me are mine.
I fear! I will to lose them.

I will lose them again with tears.
With the tears will flow away,
All the happiness of dreaming about you,
Filled with the bitterness and pain of your denial.

I know the bitterness of this pain.
I know – you cannot be blamed.
Because it was all my dream.
But still a dream that wants to come true.

I live with this dream.
The only dream of love in my life.
It is the only hope I live with now,
That trust and love still exists in this world.

So I remain quiet just looking at you,
Expecting you to read the silence of my eyes.
Expecting you to accept me
And kill all fears that are alive.

Or -I pray the owner of my destiny
To give me strength to face this storm
That rises and falls within me
And grinds me from within with my emotions.

I don’t want to lose you
By speaking my heart out.
Instead I would choose to live
With you - quietly in my heart.

An Explorer Am I?

The present is to experience ......
The past is to analyse
The future is to plan
As per the wisdom and rise

To realize- is the end
To accept- is the transitional world
To seek -is the peace,
Through knowledge, religion and wisdom

As a soul - I am an explorer,
Exploring life in every thing the world has...
Learn the language that every heart with soul speaks
My end awaits....after I seek the eternal peace

The Buddhas gained Wisdom ,sought eternal peace
On their path I await to go.....as my soul leads
I gather courage every day .....
Some day that shall be my way

The Illusionary world surrounds me though
Hiding that path -Where lay I know
My eternal happiness and peace
My destination is there -to reach

friends and foes

Do friends really exist?
Can u really trust people?
Can u expect some one to care for u?
Can u really see truth in them?

I dont know rather do I believe,
Just one thing exist for u is urself.....
U are the owner of your soul , u are the owner of your heart
and only u can respect it and care for it
leave the rest of the world apart

Explore urself as u r the world
filled with creativity and power house of thoughts
enhance this power with your strentgth
your own satisfaction is your reward

Memories and reality

I look at
the star lit night
every thing around me
is calm and quite.....

Ur memories
silently touch my soul
and speak words
that remained untold.....

I wish you
forever as mine
and spread the light
of ur love and shine.......

Now this is very
sure and certain
such a thing
will never happen......

I stand facing u
as the opposite river bank
and at this thought
my heart sank......

The river of love
touches both of us though
we shall never meet
this I know........