You live quietly in my heart

I have never been afraid,
Never been so quiet.
I was never so deep in thought
As I was awake all night.

I did not lose my heart
For the first time in my life.
However this time
I lost it – and I remain quiet.

I want to tell u.
And tell the world loud.
Yet my fear hushes me
And puts my emotions on lull.

Your thoughts and your memories,
And every thing of yours
That remain in me are mine.
I fear! I will to lose them.

I will lose them again with tears.
With the tears will flow away,
All the happiness of dreaming about you,
Filled with the bitterness and pain of your denial.

I know the bitterness of this pain.
I know – you cannot be blamed.
Because it was all my dream.
But still a dream that wants to come true.

I live with this dream.
The only dream of love in my life.
It is the only hope I live with now,
That trust and love still exists in this world.

So I remain quiet just looking at you,
Expecting you to read the silence of my eyes.
Expecting you to accept me
And kill all fears that are alive.

Or -I pray the owner of my destiny
To give me strength to face this storm
That rises and falls within me
And grinds me from within with my emotions.

I don’t want to lose you
By speaking my heart out.
Instead I would choose to live
With you - quietly in my heart.